It’s simple to explain why some people immediately get dependent upon opiates or opioids when trying them. Yes, it’s easy for me to finally realize that the normies have something I never did. At least they have something naturally that I had to work for and plead with God to have. A fearless feeling of well being.
The normies apparently have an indwelt sense of well being. They do not suffer from nagging incessant fear. Therefore when a normie does his first drug he gets high alright but he doesn’t get what we addicts get. RELIEF.
If you are an addict who has felt the obsession compulsion and what it feels like to do what you do not want to do then you know the spiritual aspect of addiction. That my friend is the part that is cunning and baffling to most.
Why is it some people get paranoid on really good weed and other’s do not? There is likely more than one reason but I have some spiritual answers to the question.
No one can find the rewind button. Most addicts were emotionally abused as children YET they have no idea what emotional abuse even looks like. Therapy works and so do the 12 steps if done deep, deep. Breath friends, just breath. There’s a light at the end of the tunnel.
The Mighty name of Jesus is The Way to receive The Holy Spirit. Receiving The Holy Spirit Baptism is no small thing that goes unnoticed. With it comes all kinds of gifts, revelations, Love, Truth, epiphanies, and total life changes.
If you Can’t See that you Have Guilt & Shame…then you will not overcome Guilt & Shame.
The hardest part about being a believer in Jesus with all the guilt trips religion passes on to the people is to accept myself just as God made me. Imperfect. If my life is manageable then I am at peace. But I will not be perfect as long as I am in the flesh. The closer I get to perfection the more false pride and judgement rear their ugly heads. The further I get from perfect the more self destruction tries to enter then there’s the self condemnation. The solutions, believe it or not are in the 12 Steps when I include God The Father/Jesus my Higher Power in my step-work.
A life of the beat down of self requires reprogramming. Step Eleven serves well to reprogram the mind if we include positive affirmation of truth repeatedly, over and over. We must reprogram the “I am bad & wrong” into “I am a blessed and worthy child of God”.