Relapse, Deliverance, Relapse, Backsliding, & Finally Overcoming

If you Can’t See that you Have Guilt & Shame…then you will not overcome Guilt & Shame.

The hardest part about being a believer in Jesus with all the guilt trips religion passes on to the people is to accept myself just as God made me. Imperfect. If my life is manageable then I am at peace. But I will not be perfect as long as I am in the flesh. The closer I get to perfection the more false pride and judgement rear their ugly heads. The further I get from perfect the more self destruction tries to enter then there’s the self condemnation. The solutions, believe it or not are in the 12 Steps when I include God The Father/Jesus my Higher Power in my step-work.

A life of the beat down of self requires reprogramming. Step Eleven serves well to reprogram the mind if we include positive affirmation of truth repeatedly, over and over. We must reprogram the “I am bad & wrong” into “I am a blessed and worthy child of God”.

Put on the whole armor of God including the prayers of the saints. Without Faith and Hope we are squittled. The Justified shall live by Faith.

Twelve Steps & Twelve Traditions Short & Long Form

READ THE TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS ONLINE.

Alcoholics Anonymous 12 Steps & Twelve Traditions

Step One
We admitted we were powerless over alcohol—that our lives had become unmanageable.
Step Two
Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
Step Three
Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.

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Daily Meditations from the Heart of Recovery

Give your worries & fear to your Higher Power who can handle it.  Do not allow fear/shame programming to cause hidden and repressed fear.  Fear should be acknowledged & faced head on so it doesn’t gain power over out actions.  Fear is part of the human condition (for now anyway) & for good reasons.  Fear run riot on the other hand, when acted upon in negative ways become the problem.

This is a file to be opened or downloaded.  The book is free PDF format text. I wrote it at the height of my own recovery.  I have been sober since 2006 and the file shows many of my best lessons in meditation reading form.

DAILY MEDITATIONS FROM THE HEART OF RECOVERY

Addiction Can Make Life Dangerous. Murder, Rape, Near Death Experiences

I have often wondered how I survived my 20’s through 30s.  Surely I kept my protecting angel very busy with so many dangerous near death mishaps.

I was a Heroin addict with a dangerous job.  I was a prostitute who worked for herself.  I ran the gamut of prostitution all the way from street level hitchhiking to the best of the best high class exquisite hotels and appointment with the rich and wealthy.

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What The Spirit Says to the Churches “Get your house in order now”.

Why?  Why “Get your House in Order”?

Update-Wow I called this one in 2020.  Now in 2022 nearly December I have used up much of my prepper food and stuff.  “Waste not the oil and the wine.”  Perhaps I was not the only one whose small business has been crashed by 50% or more $$.

2020 Article

Why is it time to get our houses in order?  And what does that mean anyway.

It means emotionally clear up all 4th step shame, resentments, and fears by writing, sharing, and confessing to God.

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14 Years Sober Kicking Subutex

False Pride is One of my Dominate Temptations of that I confess.

If Staying Sober is what you need to learn today…do not read this article.   I have many many other articles on how to stay sober. I have been sober since 2006.  That’s 14 years or so.  Ten of which I have taken some kind of doctor prescribed non narcotic drug.  Be clear I don’t take opiates, that would cause me dysfunctional addiction and horrible consequences.

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Wakey Wakey Addicts in Recovery Its Time to Seek God

Seek God while it is still light and He can be found.  Because SHIT is fixin’ to HIT THE FAN on this Earth.

Prophecies are being fulfilled right and left.

See Jazweeh.com and danaashlie.com for more on what the hell is going on the the world.  Corporate dictators have stepped into their power and that’s what you got.

“Not my circle”, or “nothing I can do about it” or “acceptance is the key” or “I am powerless” is not always the case.  Sometimes we must take action and step into our power.

PRAYERS AND NON COMPLIANCE IS OUR POWER. Step into your power people, its time. The beast is revealed and so is the antichrist and false prophet. See who is the false prophet here.

To All Addicts Recovered, Recovering, and Still Doing Research

Ladies and Gentlemen,

The program works.  Are people going to AA meeting amist the CV?  I wouldn’t know as I have not been in a few months.  I do live the steps 12 in my emotional life.   Now that I have become who I really am less the shame and the “I am bad and wrong” program the beast downloaded to my heart I find little need for meetings these days.  Please comment answers below.

I want to let you all know why I have not been writing articles about recovery.  I have purchases several new domain names and have shifted my focus onto end times articles about the great tribulation, prophecy, end times topics, and spiritual matters.  Jesus is my Higher Power…..by the way the word “Higher Powers” has made an appearance in the KJVB.  The book is changing supernaturally on the shelves.  That’s right!  This is one of the great signs and wonders that has shifted my focus onto end times prophecy.

You can find my websites here

https://jazweeh.com

https://abominationdesolation.com  (supernatural bible changes website)

https://paradiseforthehellbound.com (to read my book free)

https://danaashlie.com (a site I picked up and made as a gift to Dana Ashlie but she was not gracious or grateful and attacked me trying to get it taken down instead of utilizing it.  I gave her full access to use the site. READ MORE HERE working on a resentment toward Dana Ashlie.

Dana Ashlie Attacked Me Via my Hosting Site

Continued………………………

I have found one of the best ways to get rid of a resentment is to pray daily for that person who has wronged me.

 

https://danaashlie.com (a site I picked up and made as a gift to Dana Ashlie but she was not gracious or grateful and attacked me trying to get it taken down instead of utilizing it.  I gave her full access to use the site.

 

I even though I supplied it to her (keep in mind websites and domain names are two different entities I made the website myself and attached the domain name I own to it).  I offered it to the woman to use any way she wished and I offered to train her in web design or to buy the whole sha-bang site and name.  Instead what I got (do not return evil for good) from the real Dana Ashlie was an attack.  She apparently tried to get my domain name from me using my hosting account.  She got the site crashed for a good week by her false accusations.  Even though I own the site and the name she tried to take it away from me on the grounds that “that’s my name” she screamed!  WELL when it comes to domain names any name goes.  There are MANY “Dana Ashlie’s” on the earth and domain names are not and have never been limited to matching legal sir names to the website name and the like.  If the domain is available you can buy it…thats how it works.  Make up a name and go for it! Buy as many domain names of other people that you wish….As long as you do not impersonate that person.   Furthermore yes my feelings were hurt that all she had to do is log in and begin using the website as she pleased but that wasn’t good enough apparently, she wanted to own my work.  I made a list of helps for her, she used the list to her own advantage making an email sign up page for her site “missdanaashlie.com”.  It hurt my feelings that she was so greedy as she portrays to be a Christian woman.

 
Next she sent a fake letter from a lawyer as if I didn’t know her username is NOT her legal name and the Youtube channel is owned by foreign nationals who hire the AKA “Dana Ashlie” and give her a script telling her what to do and say. Then they edit the video adding nice A frame backgrounds and ….the actress is very likable but clearly they do not own the legal name or it would be trademarked.
Since impersonating a law firms is a serious crime they had better hope I am not as vindictive as they. IP addresses are easily obtained for email addresses. Not to mention most website log IP’s.

Thank you for letting me share my resentment. Now I forgive them for their attacks and illegal acts against me. I pray for the actress with red hair and I pray for them to have all the blessings of heaven and earth because the time is short. Amen.

Why You Can’t Stay Sober Same Reason Most Christians Will Miss The First Rapture

Most Christians Will Be Left Behind, But Not Because of Sin…..

Most Christians will be left behind by reason of their heart condition.  The same thing that needs to happen to get real/truthful with God needs to happen to stay sober.

“We MUST become as little children to inherit the Kingdom of God”.  Meaning teachable and reliant on our Higher Power.  So be sure you choose a H.P. who is Loving & capable.

What are the partially blind sheep hiding from God?

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