THE BAFFLING PART OF ADDICTION EXPLAINED. How does an emotional pain morph into spiritual blindness and darkness that would cause a man to self destruct?
Clearing up the EMOTIONAL wreckage of the past makes us less vulnerable to actions of fear and hurt toward self and others. Confessing our greatest fear(s) DOES render them powerless over us. In this sense we ARE as sick as our secrets. Shame is the leverage of darkness. Yet “shame” is something humans seldom want to explore within themselves to irrigate it with light. Why?
AA Juggernaut #2
Please try to apply this to yourself or it won’t do you any good. Open your mind to free your identity.
Prayer and step three are a prerequisite to all recovery steps and exercises for guidance and direction, for revelation, and epiphany, for self awareness and cutting through the ego .
AA status quos are the AA Juggernauts that can kill you. We must allow ourselves to become vulnerable emotionally if we are going to heal. We must not allow our intellect to stifle what our heart needs to say. The AA Juggernaut is to follow socially acceptable rules during our recovery process. By this we would cover up our heart and hide it from real recovery.
My recovery from addiction in short has been about
The Most Valuable Lesson in Recovery
You are beautiful and there are ways to teach your heart to believe it.
Truly Step Eleven has brought me the most enlightenment, healing, self awareness, and fulfillment of all the 12 steps. Granted, the other eleven steps are necessary for recovery. But had I not spent years in meditation I would not know myself or my Higher Power very well.
My Higher Power is light and life. I am light and life. Connecting to my H.P. during prayer and meditation allows me to absorb the gifts the Spirit has for me. The most wonderful experience and closeness to The Creator I have ever
Why Dale K Re-wrote The First 164 Pages of The Big Book
Why on Earth did Dale K think he had the right to change our treasured Big Book?
Some background info. Who is AAAgnostica and Tom B?
Read original aaagnostica article here
The AAAgnostica site advocates the book “Secular Sobriety” by Dale K which is a rewrite of the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book text. aaagnostica.org and writer Tom B. are an open minded, free-thinking organization geared toward alcoholics Anonymous. They impress on us the fundamentals of a godless recovery for those who need it. (Tom B always uses a small “g”) The website’s “about” page states this: “When we use the word “agnostic” in relation to AA – or words like “atheist” or “freethinker” – we are simply referring to the specific wisdom of groups and individuals within the fellowship who understand that belief in a “God” (of any understanding) is not a necessary part of recovery from alcoholism. They advocate freedom of choice where religion and spirituality are concerned and admonish religious dogma and social prejudice that lives in the rooms of AA. Here is their email if you wish to contact them. Thomas B writes most of the articles on the site and wrote one promoting the book “Secular Sobriety”.
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We’re All Here for the Very Same Reason
AA Can you help me unravel my latest mistake? Damn right we can.
“You’re a little late..I’m already torn, torn.”
It is progress to realize one is emotionally torn. This is the first step in emotional healing. Emotions, Body, and spirit in us are as one….We need not label our emotions “bad” or “weak” but rather embrace them as part of us. Take up the defensive angry screaming ego known as the “committee” and nurture that part of ourselves with Love, comfort, and assurance. During step eleven meditations I can reassure that part of me which is defensively reactionary when fear is triggered.
My “addict” (persay) wears a stone cold armor of defense and blame so I
A Note to my Alcoholics Anonymous Family
Alcoholics Anonymous Family,
There is so much in this world to fear. The more research I do on the condition of the Earth, food, pollution, radiation, food additives, toxins, malnutrition due to processed foods the more I am learning about THE BIGGEST PROBLEMS in 2017. So I regroup & choose faith and hope to kwell the horrible uncertainties of the future. My HP has got my back. And I know the tools that bring me back to the safety of “NOW”. Writing is one of my tools. So with all the dangers around me I moved myself on to the solutions just like my favorite AA cliche’ states; “Out of the problem into the solution”. And my 2nd fav. “Move a muscle change a thought”. 3rd “the program works”.
Recovery from Addiction
Jails, Institutions, and Near Death
Spring of 2006 I spent 2 months in jail getting sober for the last time. I spent my time locked up reading the Bible, The Big Book, writing ‘Paradise for the Hellbound’, and praying that the judge would sentence me to Bridgehouse. Bridgehouse (B.H.) is a rehab center owned by Meridian Behavioral Healthcare. I had been on the Methadone program there and I sent letters to my doctor to get me into rehab from jail. He was all for it. He himself later landed in rehab. Come to find out the doc was dipping into his own meds .How convenient.
On June 15th 2006 I got transported to B.H. by a Levy County Sheriff to begin my 28-day stay. Twenty-eight days…… twenty-eight days …. (reminiscent sigh). In the spring of 2006 28 days seemed like a very long time. The days were long and the nights were even longer. I had been in my addiction for nearly 35 years.
Organic Marijuana and Spirituality
Organic High Grade Marijuana and Spirituality
What’s the Link? (article written by Brenda Lane) Pertaining to addiction recovery.
The prospect of a spiritual tool like pot to help enable a spiritual experience of awakening isn’t something we should do often. It’s kindred to going into the mountains, taking peyote, and facing your demons. If your used to high grade pot it will not work. If you smoke pot recreationally it will not work because your too used to it.
First Protection
I don’t advise meditation without the covering of Jesus. Furthermore I don’t even advise smoking pot without the covering of Jesus. I meditate in Christ covered by His sacred blood that He shed on the Cross, and by His Spirit. Why? I would not feel safe seeking the spirit realm without spiritual protection. It’s not wise at all.
2. But isn’t meditation evil according to Christians?
“And Isaac went out to meditate in the field at the eventide: and he lifted up his eyes, and saw, and, behold, the camels were coming.”
Yes Christians on the most part think meditation and even the sacred crystals written of in the Bible are evil. Satan has done his job well convincing us to only talk and never LISTEN to God. Training your mind to listen to God is what meditation is about in my book.
Moreover how is getting quiet and seeking a closer relationship with God evil? How is using the Lords prayer as a mantra and envisioning it word for word evil? The reason to do this is to train our minds to think on one thought and not stray. Once we have succeeded with this we can empty our minds. Is that also evil? And all this should be done (if you are a Christian) to seek Jesus, have self revelation of our fears, hurts, shame, and improve our godly walk.
If pot was or is your drug of choice, or if you see it as a chronic and addictive solution to fear and your emotional condition then pot meditation does not apply to you. If you believe addiction is about the substance rather than a person’s heart and mind then this article does not apply to you and won’t make sense. Clearly there are people whom pot simply didn’t work for in their addiction. These are the very people who can benefit most from an occasional organic high grade Marijuana meditation session.
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What is Addiction Really?
What is Addiction Really?
We do not have to know “why” we became addicts to recover. If our brains are still prone to obsession it’s understandable that our sponsors suggest to us “don’t ask why”. For the sake of peace in the first few years we should both “choose our battle’s” wisely and choose our purposes and goals wisely. “Out of the problem into the solution” is by far one of my most valuable mantras for recovery.
However moving on into a more mature lifestyle I am discovering my truths and who I am. If I question nothing and never ask “why” I shut myself out to both knowledge and learning. This flipside of the “why ask why” coin is both dangerous and lacks depth. A lack of learning is akin to a stagnant mind and stunted emotional growth. My mind should have moved on into sanity at some point. If I work the steps and get some good therapy.
First let me tell you this. I have had long periods of sobriety then relapsed. My last sober run beginning in 2006 and still going strong. Oddly the topic of addiction interests me thoroughly even today after years of sobriety.
So what is addiction really? Is it cunning, baffling and powerful? At some point we can all agree that “yes” it is. What does the Big Book tell us? It’s insidious, progressive, deadly, destructive and a spiritual sickness or malady of sorts. Some says it’s inherited and genetic. Some say it grounded in our environment.
“From it stem all forms of spiritual disease, for we have been not only mentally and physically ill, we have been spiritually sick. When the spiritual malady is overcome, we straighten out mentally and physically.” Big Book fourth step.
There’s that contradiction again “spiritually and sick”. Spirituality is in some ways a replacement drug for addiction.
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Bill W’s Article in the Grapevine
From the article posted on silkworth.net
The Next Frontier: Emotional Sobriety
by Bill Wilson
Copyright © AA Grapevine, Inc, January 1958
(Also see: A Letter From Bill W. on Depression, from the memoirs of Tom Pike, an early California AA member, which is strikingly similar to this AA Grapevine Article, “The Next Frontier: Emotional Sobriety.”)